The Mid-Life Awakening: The Decade That Changed Everything

I didn’t mean to lose myself, but motherhood has a way of swallowing a woman whole. Somewhere between diapers, exhaustion, and perfectionism, I disappeared. I didn’t lose myself all at once. Motherhood just took more of me than I knew to give.

Mid-Life

I spent an entire decade drifting away from myself. Not loudly. Not dramatically. But quietly, like a realization I could no longer ignore. A decade keeping the peace, carrying the load, saying yes when my soul whispered no. I suppressed emotions. Silenced needs. Molded myself into who I thought I was supposed to be. I was surviving not thriving. Holding it all together until holding it together became exhaustion. At some point, I realized I did not recognize myself anymore. I prayed. I journaled. I slowed down. And something shifted, gently. I realized I needed to come back to myself. What we call mid-life crisis is not a breakdown, it’s an awakening. A moment when the old way stop working. When pushing no longer helped. When exhaustion and burnout become information. I chose to Awaken.

The “Lost Decade”

For years, I thought I had wasted time. I grieved all the versions of me that had dimmed themselves to survive. But now, I see it differently. I didn’t lose a decade. I lived through a decade that shaped the woman I’m becoming. It taught me what I will no longer tolerate. It showed me where I abandoned myself. It revealed the wounds I needed to heal. It awakened me to God’s call on my life. And it gave me the courage to say:

“I refuse to live the next decade like the last.”

The Mid-Life Unravel Is Actually an Invitation

An invitation to:

✨ reclaim your identity
✨ find your voice
✨ rediscover your purpose
✨ honor your nervous system
✨ break generational patterns
✨ choose yourself without guilt
✨ become a more grounded mother
✨ step into the calling God placed on your heart

Mid-life is not the end of your story —it’s the moment you finally take authorship of it.

Turning 40 Didn’t Break Me. It Revealed Me.

This is my awakening.
My unraveling.
My redemption arc.
My return home.

And if you’re reading this, maybe you’re in your unravel too.

Maybe you feel the pull but can’t quite name it.
Maybe you’re questioning everything.
Maybe you’re tired, not lazy tired, buy soul tired from pretending the old ways still work.
Maybe you’re standing at a crossroads you didn’t expect.

That doesn’t mean something is wrong with you. It may mean something is finally being revealed. This season isn’t asking you to fix yourself. It is inviting you back to yourself, slowly, honestly, gently, with courage, grace, and room to breathe.

I hope this is the year you say yes to yourself. This awakening changed how I live, how I parent, and how I guide other parents back to themselves.